My first reading spec

 

Believe it or not…its time to put on my first reading specs.

Even though many couldn’t tell my actual age, no one seems to believe that I am above 30..of age..People were astonished when I told them I am above 35years old…you can see the way they drop their jaw….Even though it is so…..but undeniable my ‘perfect’ eye sight has show signs of aging…knees seems to get weaken as well…

I have problems now looking at small wordings…and guess what….I tot it was because I was unwell that wordings seems blurry to me…but to my surprise just now…when I put on my first read spec…the words or text on my mobile phone seems unbelievably clear and sharp……I am shocked and surprised….to realised the actual state of my present eye sight..

Many thought that reading glasses is only needed at the age of 50s but in fact I learnt from many that people with prefect and good eye sight will tend to put on reading glasses earlier..usually after the age of 35…

Will this cause me to be more sensitive towards aging? I guess probably when I hit the Big ‘4’ then I would probably become more sensitive towards Age..

The secret of staying young is to stay young at heart..everyone reacts according to their perception of their age…

I am never sensitive to numbers and I always stays happy…thus..this is my secret of having a younger look…but of course gene plays an important role as well…my mum doesn’t look like her age at look as well……she look appx…ten years younger than her actual age…so similarly I got that from her….

Dressing and behave plays another important role……as well…if you think that you are an aunty or uncle and start to dress and behave like one…then ..of course you will be….

So….stay happy and positive…and you will stay young even if the body or eye sight start to age….

The Hat that Fits

 

I am a collector of Hats. There are people are are Boots Feetish and some one I know is Sofa Feetish. Me? I am Hats Feetish…

I look good in hats and caps, thus I have a number of them in my collection.

But not all Hat will Fit. I always remember a chinese phrase that goes “没那么大的头别戴那么大的帽子”it means one must know their own ability. Do not over estimate your ability. Everyone should get only what they deserve but of course God do give us blessings giving us what we do not deserve.

Talking about that, do you know the different between Grace and Blessings?

These two words are commonly used by Christians and many. But do you really know what it means?

Grace: Is God did not give us what we deserve, such as we are all sinners but because of the grace of God, He did not send us all to Hell but sent His son Jesus Christ to die for us on the cross so that we can be cleanse by the precious blood of Jesus to enter into Heaven rather than going into Hell (which by our sins deserved).

Blessing: Is what we do not deserve but God give to us. Many things in life is a blessing, such as our love ones, our family, our job, our school, our bonus, our bosses, our collegues, our house, our cars…etc..

Ok back to where I was…The Hat that Fits…

In the past when I looked at the different salary range which people are earning… I start to ponder…how can people earn so much more than me….I always thinks its unlikely for me to earn anything within that range…owing at least 2 out of the 5 C is impossible for me..but now that I have achieved it. But still my thinking has not change…one needs to have the head that is big enough for the hat he or she wants to wear…

Higher pay or higher rewards meanings higher contribution and much more is required from me….am I able to manage it? Bro told me, I should get above $xxxx amount of salary for what he sees I am doing right now…if I am not getting it…that company is not rewarding me enough…but for me….hmm….that amount is not one which I can ever think of myself getting such amt in at least these two years…Brother has put on a Hat that is too Big for me to wear..and I feel breathless….

Today I feel so stressed out with work…thus came out here to take a little breathe to breath a little….

Time to get back to where I should be….putting on my ‘Hat’ for the day.

A Bouquet

 

Last night when I was on my way home after parking my car at the multi-storey carpark, as I was making my way out of the carpark, I walked pass a car…

What caught my eyes was this bouquet of beautiful roses placed infront of the windscreen of one of the car. Looks like a very romantic guy wants to give his lover a surprise.

Just imagining the blessed lady walked to her car and wants to start off her day or head off for somewhere…seeing a beautiful bouquet laying just right infront of her eyes on her windscreen…isn’t that romantic???

My dream is that one day a guy who I like will send me a bouquet of flower to my office or give me such a surprise…that will really sweeten my entire day I guess…

How romantic this could be…

So far…this has yet to happen…the only bouquet I received from guy was first from my uncle on my 21st birthday, then from my ex-bf on our 100days and 200days anniversary but no bouquet on valentines…sad huh….hahaha…

Well….will just have to wait patiently for the Mr Right to make his way to me…

I am a blessed person!!!

I am a blessed person indeed!!!
With a thankful heart I give thanks for everything that God has given to me and our family thru-out 2010.
Even tho, life are filled with hipcups..but it makes us stronger and the family bonding even stronger.
Chinese there is a saying...患难见真情！
It means hardship is a test for real love or relationship.
Through our hardship my family bonding grew very strong.....and we love our family and enjoy spending most of the precious possible time together.

I thank God for my wonderful Parents esp MUM the greatest woman in the World!
and my siblings esp my elder brother and my nice sister in law who is also my friend and my lovely niece :)

We love spending wonderful time together esp every weekend and special day!
Such bonding does not comes easily. We went through alot to be what we are right now.
I thank God for providing our family with all our needs and blessing us in every way. My greatest wish is that one day, everyone in the family will accept salvation so that one day we can all enters into heaven :)

Let me take this chance to give thanks and glory to God for the entire 2010.
Thank God for all His providence for my work, my study, my life, my finance, my family and my spiritual needs!
Thank God for the good grades which he has given me and May all the glory be given upon HIM.
Each exam is a huge challenge for me...I could only do my best at each situation, if you know what I have been through during each exam for the past two years.
Each exam I made a prayer..."God, pls me to pass and if possible do well so that I can glorify Your Name-not for my own glory but for Yours."
I may not be an A scorer but at least God has given me more than what I expect I could get esp with each tough situation I faced during exam.
Each result slip seems to be a miracle...

I have yet to get the result slip for last semester...Last Semester I really feel as if I would die anytime...because I was managing this new house renovation and getting the old house packed and preparing for my exam and shifting house in between my exams...situation was tough...and thank God I pulled over...Pray that I could still do well...so as to glorify the Name of God, that God is my provider..with Him All things is possible. It is Him who gives me strength!

Just one more semester and I am graduating...
After my final exam presentation in April this year, I will complete my entire Bsc (Hons) in Marketing from University of Bradford.
I believe the day of my convocation in UK I will cry....and say "I have finally make it!!! Its soooo tough but God has been with me!!! May all the praise and thanks giving be given to God the Highest!!!" Amen!!!

Everyone is getting or have gotten their year end bonus and so did I...
Blessed again....during the last day of the year 2010, bosses asked me to their house and did an overall eventuation...told me I did very well this year...and gave me lots of encouragement and we discussed on how I may improve even further this year. They gave me good rewards for my hardwork and good performance. Praise the Lord!!

So, I went shopping on the first day of 2011 for the family and myself to get something for them, mainly for my parents and youngest family since they are no longer working...thinking abt it now..there is another thing which I should do...
haha....secret...

Cheers!!!
Thank God once again for everything!!
May the Lord continue to shower His blessings onto me and my family and all my love ones...praying for those who are unwilling and God may make their well again!
God bless you and Jesus loves you!!!
Amen.

Discovering your true identity

Hello there! Happy New Year to you if you just pop by to my blog this year (2011)

And Welcome to my blog, Dance with Sketches.

Just a quick recap of why I named my blog dance with sketches, its because life is like sketches drew or to be drawn on the sketchbook so as to made perfect the final product.

Everyone is alike a rough precious stones that needs trimmed of the rough edge and polishing in order bring out the true glory and fulfil their true identity in life.

No one really knows who they are until the day they depart this world, looking back at their entire life. No doubt we do know many things about ourselves but do we really knew fully who we are???

In this new year take time to quiet down ourselves…time about who we really are and what is our true identity. From Marketing point of view, Corporate Marketing analyse Identity as ACI2D i.e. Actual Identity, Communicated Identity, Conceived Identity, Ideal Identity, Desire Identity. See even eventually a corporate identity there are so many identity to take care of and align them.

In a personal aspect, I think we all live by the Desire Identity, just like the Vision and Mission set in an organisation. And we tried to live out the ideal identity throughout our life making the best and giving our best out of everything situation. Not sure if this applies to you but it applies to me.

Some times in life, we may want to communicate our actual identity to others but failed to do so, thus there is an misalignment between the actual identity and the conceived identity (misperception of others).

Sound like a life that is so tense right??? Haha..don’t worry…this is not to stress you out in this new year but rather just to bring an awareness of the presents of these different category of identities, so that you don’t have to be too troubled by it…

For me, I believe that when we do our best at each situation (ideal identity), God will do the rest. Whether or not what is conceived by others is not fully controlled by us. Time will tells. And over the years, I learnt a precious lesson which a man I used to love in the past tried to taught me back then but I didn’t get it till after he left…i.e. we live for ourselves not for others.

In the past, Angeline-Me, I have always live to please others, always placing others first, lost the real identity. Its always, if others is happy then I will be happy. I loved others more than myself and thus was living a stressful and unhappy life. I recalled that I couldn’t even answer a simple question like “Are you happy?”…My answer back then was long pause…..followed by “if…..this happen I will be happy..”

But now, I have changed over the years and learnt the precious lesson after living for others for 30years..i.e. I have learnt to love myself….I do everything for myself….and I learnt to think about myself first, what I want? Will I be happy? How will I feel? Am I really able to help or satisfy others at this moment? Do I really want to do it? Will I be happy if I do this for others at this moment? It might sound selfish…which it seems that way to me..in the past…but when I lived in out in a positive way….I became a happier person.

I no longer live for others. I have my life which I want to live for myself and do not want to regret looking back at my entire life knowing only then that my life is so empty and everything is only for others. And I learnt a true fact that Men can never be satisfy…it is not possible to satisfy everyone….so…just do what we can and what make us happy if we do it…then we can do with a sincere heart and be happy about it.

Life is not about satisfying others but living for ourselves and be responsible for ourselves not for others. So don’t take the responsibility which others should bear on your shoulder because everyone is responsible for their own life.

The gate of heaven is a free gift…our responsibility is to point to them the way, guide them and sharing the words of God with them and the truth about salvation. But if the person refused to accept, there is no way, you can pull him/her into heaven. He or She makes the choice, to accept the gift of salvation or not. Salvation is personal, thus cannot be forced. God will not let anyone with an unwilling heart to enters into heaven unless he or she truly believed. So there is no such thing as forced to become a Christian. If you are forced to do so, there is problem with the doctrine of that church.

In this new year, may you receive the true gift of salvation. Amen!

New Year Resolution

Happy 2011 everyone!!!

2011 has arrived..have you made your new year resolution after evaluation your 2010???

I have been evaluating my own performance in 2010 in all aspect of life..
and came up with some new year resolution...

If you have not...take a moment and start working one out....so that you will have some aims and directions in this new year...
Resolution is what we wish to achieve...but not neccessary will achieve...
I am one who likes to plan things ahead...
I hate the feeling of ambiguity...and hate to be rush...
likes to take things within control...so it irritates me if I am suddenly FORCE to do something which is not within my plan.
But even tho I hate amibiguity, it doesn't mean that I will escape when challenge by the unknown...

I will take the challenge when I think its neccessary and make sure I do the best and have the 'ambiguity' within control after I start getting my hands on the job..

In this new year what is my resolution???

Here is part of the list..and probably might add on more along the way...
1) Do well for my Final Exam and aim for at least a 2nd upper class honors if possible..and if God allows...

2) Attend my graduation convocation in UK (London) in Dec 2011.
3) Travel around Europe during my trip in UK for my convocation in Dec.
4) Do better and improve in my work.
5) Be a more compassionate person in certain aspect
6) Spend more time caring for my parents
7) Discipline my expenditure
8) Pick up Korean language
9) Bear a good testimony, do devotion daily and be well prepared for each children worship sharing
10) Last but not least...perhaps...fall in love again...hahaha....


I think many might have a similar list with me...right...
its just one way or another...

Jang Geun Suk & Moon Geun Young - I'm In Love

This songs makes me feel like falling in love...
that's why I love korean drama and korean song...
they bring out the essence of life....
This song brings out the sweet taste of romance and happiness when falling in love..
Hmm...I missed those feelings which I probably have left it in the past...somewhere..
In this new year...Will my true love comes???

Or perhaps it better to stay as a happy single just as what I am right now...
Either way...I believe God's way is the best way.

Men makes plans but its God that direct our Path ahead...
Many times in life we hope for many things but not neccessarily may comes true..
Esp for love or relationship...its never something which one may control...
If its yours its yours...if it is not yours...no matter how tight you tried to grab hold of it....when the time comes...it will just slip away....

Evaluating my love journey...One thing I learnt...
Love is warm and sweet...but may change anytime...so...cherish while we still have it....Loving a person is wanting the best for the person we love...I have done that many times throughout my love journey....not because I am a GREAT OR SILLY PERSON..but to me...there is no point holding back someone when his heart is no longer with you...

I once let go of a man I love many many years back....not because we do not love each other..but I think he deserve someone better than me....and indeed he is now happily married with children....and I am very happy for him...
We are still very good friends....forever....even tho we don't really meet up anymore since he is married...but I believe we still cares alot for each other and always will want the best for each other...
He is the sweetest and heart warming person I known...

A buddy of his once describe him as a flask that never runs out of water...
meaning that he is one who will continue to give his best and his all to the one he love and never runs out of it.....

Best wishes to you my friend!!!
Thanks for the text message...Wishing you and your family a Fantastic New Year!!!

What is your New Year Resolution for 2011?
I will share with you mine shortly :)
Have a blessed 2011.