Time is a luxury

One of the master piece which I love most is this:
The Persistence of Memory
Artist Salvador Dalí
Year 1931
Type oil on canvas
Dimensions 24 cm × 33 cm (9.5 in × 13 in)
Location Museum of Modern Art, New York City
For the novel by Tony Eprile, see The Persistence of Memory (novel).
The Persistence of Memory
Artist Salvador Dalí
Year 1931
Type oil on canvas
Dimensions 24 cm × 33 cm (9.5 in × 13 in)
Location Museum of Modern Art, New York City
La persistencia de la memoria (1931) or The Persistence of Memory – also known by some as Melting Clocks – is the most famous painting by artist Salvador Dalí.

The painting has been in the collection of the Museum of Modern Art (MoMA) in New York City since 1934. It is very widely recognized, and is a frequent reference in popular culture.

On contrary, to me..The melting clock symbolise that time is melting away...
slipping thru our hands like melting ice..turning into water...
you cannot catch hold of it..

There are many people around me who care for me and wanting me to caring for them..
So much that each seems to want a part of me...which I cannot afford...
as time is no longer a common thing I have in hand...its like a luxury that I can hardly afford at this present moment...
so much so...I started to behave like a man I loved in the past...
he knew I loved him deeply but knowing he couldn't give me what I want of him..and he started to keep himself away from me....
I discover myself doing this since I started studying...or even earlier..
The more that person wants a part of me...the more I will keep myself away...becuz I know I can never satisfy him/her or the expectation on me..
their love and care became a weight which weights heavily on me...
No doubt the soft part of Angie is reproaching her each time she knew she had to spend some time with A or B or C..people who are important in her life..and has been thru with her in her life...

But the Angie now, who has learnt to love herself finally...realise..its time to live for herself and not others..there are too many people expect her to be there for them at all the time..which she can no longer cope...she need to focuz in her life and accomplish what she has to do now...i.e Her job, her study, family, her faith and her finance...She needs to learn that its her life..she needs to live for herself not others...so..no matter how others might feel...she really cannot do much but to squeeze out part of her precious for one at a time..so my dear ones..pls do not expect much for Angie now..becuz she does not have the luxury of time. I guess eventually..everyone has to learn to respect each other life and decision in life.

Time is the best test for all things..if anything should fade away as the time goes by...that just shows..how well that foundation was built.
Last but not least...the time if I ever squeeze to meet anyone of u..is really the best I could do for you right now.
I hope u can understand and appreciate..otherwise..there is nothing much to say but what we have just isn't strong.

Take care!
p.s. There are so much to be done and yet to be done..and I missed time for myself too...Oh and remember..never rely on men but only God alone..becuz Men will disappoint you, as we are not PREFECT!

Love quote#1

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

Getting off the wrong side of the bed

Ever had this feeling that you got off from the wrong side of the bed?
I felt that way today..
Except that I had the Lord Jesus with me..so..things didn't turn out too bad ..
But heartache couldn't be avoided tho :)

Well..just like my bosses say...MOVE ON..don't be discourage...thank God for giving me good and understanding bosses...
May our Lord bless my bosses..:)

When my true love comes

Days ago..I had strange dream..
I was married on my 40th birthday instead of 20th May of my 40th birthday..

Angeline is always very bad with numbers..
but strangely..in this dream..I actually remembered that outside a ballroom..it was written Happy 40th Birthday Angeline..

But as I enters the room..it turned out that it was my wedding..which was supposed to be on 20th May instead of 9th May..i.e. My birthday..
I was totally caught off-guard..

What a sweet but strange dream...hmmm............

Roller coaster

Talking about Roller Coaster...
The sweetest love letter was the love letter written by my 1st date (bf-to-be)..
The nicest guy whom I loved and loved me back then..

We parted because he knew he couldn't be a christian whom I needed and wanted my life partner to be..Tho he went to church with me..but he just couldn't feel the way I felt for my Lord Jesus Christ. He mentioned that he wish he could experience what God let me went thru and he can feel that strongly for God..eventually I guess he just wasn't the chosen one by God.

He has done many sweet things in my life..
He took funny passport pics to make me laugh when I thot I probably frightened him away during our very first date when he came to pick me up from work..and my gastric started to hurt so badly that I went back to my workplace and vomited..We had to postpone our date to the next day. I thot he probably will wanna say to break up with me..even tho we are at the 'probation' period..

His sweetness and sincerity touches me. So did the love letter he wrote to me..
It was the sweetest anyone could have written to me..
He said..days with me were like a journey on the Roller Coaster..it felt like on the top of the roller coaster...so beautiful...so exciting..filled with happiness..he wished each moment could last forever..
However when he was back to his own world again..it felt as if he has fallen to the bottom of the roller coaster...it hit the ground..Back to reality he had to face teasing by his friend for becoming christian..and the fear of his family's reaction as he comes from a very traditional chinese background..He felt lonely..and struggled. He looked forward to each new adventure with me..but he had lots of worries and fears to overcome..We were pretty young then..

So..at the end..he left the decision to me..willing to take whatever the decision I made...
After lots of struggle....I decided to let go of his hand...We parted by the beach with lots of our buddies waiting for that critical moment of my decision.
I told him to go for his happiness...and even persuade him to court after a woman who is now his happy wife..because..I felt that this man loves me more than I love him...I do not deserve him..An antique needs to be in the hand of the beholder (collector) to have its worth. In a layman's hand..its value can never be appreciated as much..neither can it shines...

Each one is an antique and a collector..and one day..I will find my collector and my antique too! :)

I thank God for this precious moment that will always stays with me..forever..and thank God for him that has ever been in my life..ever so sweet..and still we are friends forever....

Here comes the new spice in life..

Life seems to be pretty dry recently..occupied with work,study and freelance designing...feeling really exhausted...
Was hoping for a new love and romance to come along the way to spice up my life alittle.. :)

New romance brings new excitement..its thrilling...but can be exhausting in a way as well..as if one rides on a roller coaster...
One moment..you feel like you are at the top of the world..
the next moment you may feel as if you have fell to the pit..when that person seems to be silence and not responding..The heart seems to pounding heavily..you seems to lose a moment as if you have entered into a complete new world...You seem to lose focuz of what you are doing for a moment..then HEY WAKE UP..!!! Back you went into reality again..

Something I learned from the past..If its yours its yours..it won't run away..
And even if he does run away..it probably means he is not the one for you.
Chinese has a saying "Mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de!" Right?
Hee..

Well..in anyway, its better to have a new romance than none..Something to look forward to each day I guess...Love or not? Nah..not at this moment..just a little spice in my life..who knows..the next moment it could be gone with the wind..

Cheers:)

Paintball outing

Hey guys sooo sorry that I have been sooo busy with work, study and freelance designing...Finally this issue of newsletter is done..hopefully no futher changes and they can proceed for printing straight away...
Rushing it for nites sleeping only at 2.30am for a few nite..
really exhausted...I had proposed to draw out from this project as time is really not on my side..

Just a quick sharing..of the pics taken during our recent class outing few weeks ago with my 1st year classmates/buddies..
Look..its soo fun..tho the Huge bruise took me abt a week to go off..and trust me the bruise turn out to be as big as 8-9cm..haha..looks scarly..but hey its fun!!!
I sure wanna go again..!!!

Here are some interesting pics to share with you...
The one with pink helmet and red tshirt is ME!!!
Hee..






THE BATTLE BEGIN.................






BATTLE CONTINUES.............






RESULT:
ROUND ONE: MY GROUP WON
ROUND TWO: NONE (ALL RUN OUT OF 'BULLET')
ROUND THREE: OPPONENTS WON
THUS: ALL ARE WINNERS...

CONCLUSION: GREAT FUN!!!!
Thanks Derek for organising:)

3rd issue design..

Rushed thru yesterday and today..
finally finished 10pages of design..
having a hard time retrying to log into my windows..
wasted an hour trying to go into my window to start my programme..
not sure is it i accidently deleted something yesterday while trying to solve my design software programme..
i had problem with my FreeHand..it changes my " " and ' into boxes when I convert into path...
If anyone of you knows how to solve this problem pls advise..
Its killing me.. otherwise I have to cut and paste and replace every single " " and ' bit by bit with the one I draw..its so taxing...
Anyway I am asking to change the meeting and submission date to this sat..hopefully they will allow...
Its abt 2am now..just finished the 10th page..
I need to sleep now..
I have a long day tomorrow.
Pray for me ya..
Thanks!
Have a great week ahead!
Cheers!

Quick update

Hey guys

Sorry that I have been soooo busy that I haven't got time to update my blog.
Thanks for your support and patient to follow thru..
I guess some probably might have left cuz i haven't been update as frequent as before.

Currently i am busy rushing my 14 pages of Newsletter for Marine parade GRC.
Need to finish by tomorrow midnite as Monday nite I have classes and tuesday will be the meeting for the committee to go thru before printing.

Actually I haven't got time to work on the newsletter after I recieved the articles last Monday, because I had oversea supplier who came over the whole of last week..I had to arrange meetings, fetch him from hotel and went for meetings with him thru-out the day..and then bring him for dinner and go for my class and sent him back to hotel. After sending him back to hotel..I had to go back and start checking and reply office email from midnite till 2-3am..then continue this routine till he went back. After sending him off to airport on last thursday..i rush back to office to start packing up for our office shifting..then rush for my class again.

Last Friday was busy with packing in the office till about 10.30pm or so..and sat continue with packing and shifting in to our new office..worked till 8pm..whole body wanna break..then bosses treat us to back massage..
Finally gotta rest on sunday..
Due to the overworking for the whole of last week...this week..I was no able to do on any design after work...
And I have been working till pretty late everyday..plus my evening classes..
Finally gotta sleep till 1pm..today..then start to fix my pc problem before I can work on my design...
There are lots more to do..
but i am exhausted..for today..
will probably continue after church tomorrow to finish all the 14 pages..
Probably will have to work till midnite or 2-3am again...

i am seriously considering to give up this freelance project after this is done..as i am too packed..I really seems to have no life..no time to rest..Pray for me ya?
I thank God for the opportunity to work on this project..Its really a gift from God and good experience and profile.

Nite..

Rainbow Souvenir on my arm..A wonderful sunday outing..

Today I had a great fun with my ex-classmates and present classmate..
Derek, my buddy organised a class outing today..i.e Paintball Outing..

Here are the informations:

RECOMMENDED ATTIRE;
Dark coloured long sleeve tops (eg. long sleeve sports jerseys, cardigan), long pants (eg. track pants, jeans) and covered shoes (eg. soccer boots, running shoes) are recommended. Bringing a change of clothing is advisable as we will be there for you, rain or shine.

We took the package called Rambo
PACKAGE D - RAMBO (250 paintballs per pax) - $49.90 per pax

One man with one mission: Destroy the opposition and survive! With 250 paintballs assigned to you, you are fearless and dangerous. Immerse in a fun day of shooting, hiding and capturing the flag! As our most popular package, this will guarantee you with a full paintball experience. Suitable for team building games amongst friends, colleagues and families. Estimated game duration is about 2 hours which includes safety briefing.

http://weplaypaintball.com/Contact.html

There were 3 guys and 6 gals who went today..
Initially we gals wanted to challenge the 3 guys i.e. 6 against 3..hee..
then the guys 'objected'..so we play 'Or Ah Bei Ah Som'..and ended up...I was with the 3 guys..in a team..it was a great fun..

We had fun shoting each other and the target object and avoid ganna hit...
Funnie thing is..I actually shot my own team mate...which the girls wanted to hit..hee..just for fun..I din not do it deliberately..just that as I was attacking the target he suddenly came running across..so he got hit...another of my team mate also almost got hit from me..for the same incident..thank God only hit his gun..
Good thing about this game is...no one will actually die..once you got hit..you simple run to your safty board to touch and you are alive and can play again..

There were total 3 rounds..
I managed to shot down the target while the guys ran to snatch the flags...
1st round we won...2nd round..all no more bullet..3rd round the gals win..
It was really a fun outing...we should organise such outing more often...hee..
We had a great time..
Good time about this is..everyone tho grumbling but we are really cool about it..and know its just a game..even tho we shot each other with a number of bruises..
One is the gals got 9 bruise..I only got one..but a huge one..
The person in charge say the bruise will take one two weeks to recover..
But we had a great fun!!!!
Thanks Derek for organising this game..Sorry lutfi that you could't join becuz you are unwell..It would have been even more fun if you could join..
I like being in the same teams as the guys (James, Jeff and Derek) they are very cool about it..esp James..he just make a joke of me shooting him from behind..and laugh it off.

After the game we went for dinner at a nice chinese restaurant at Yishun..then I sent James back..
What a wonderful sunday!!! :)

p.s. you guys should try out paintball at Bottle Tree Park near Khatib MRT sometime..
check out their website. :)
Exact location;
http://weplaypaintball.com/images/Red%20Dynasty%20Paintball%20Park%20(Bottle%20Tree%20Park,%2081%20Lorong%20Chencharu,%20S769198).jpg

Have a great week ahead! cheer:)