It is well with my Soul

May this song comfort you the way it did for me..knowing that God knows everything you are going thru and been thru. And the Lord brings comfort and healing to us if we just open our heart to the Lord and accept Jesus as our Saviour and our Comforter.

Jesus Loves you.

Grace is for all

Grace is for all, like the notes on the keyboard..there are White notes and Black notes..this video shows us that each of us, no matter black or white is all precious in the eyes of God. We should not emphasize on one and neglect the other.

Surprised Call

Got a surprised call from someone who was my first date donkeys of years back.

He is one of the nicest guy whom I gave up becuz I felt that he was too good for me, it will be a waste if he is with me cuz he needed someone who treasure him much much more than me, and thus I encouraged him to go after this nice lady and yes she was the collector and she became his wife. Of cuz there is also religion matters involved because he is not a christian tho a very good man. He came to my church a number of times and was very very good to me..He even came to watch my first small piano performance during then. He appreciate me very much..we can talk for hours and hours even after we no longer together..

I am really happy for him. The most decent and honest guy I came about.
I remember one of his buddy told me this..."yes..he is like a tea-pot which will never ran dry...if he loves someone...he will love and give in his all, making this woman the happiest woman in this world." Well...I agree..

I don't recall we have any fights..He always makes me laugh...we have endless things to talk about..We often wrote love letters to each other even tho we talk every night during then..He will often gives me surprises putting on smiles on my face which really touches my heart.

But well..of cuz from the day he got married, we seldom keep in touch but we always keep each other in our heart as true friends.

True and good friends doesn't have to be together everyday and seeing or talking to each other every now and then. Its all kept in the heart..
Same thing as all his buddies...we still sms each other once in a while..
Now..most of them are parents already...

Really happy for them.
LIke I always say (Angeline's copyright illustration): Everyone is an antique, each is precious and vaulable...priceless...An antique needs to be in the hands of the collector who truly appreciate his/her value..taking every single care to protect this antique and maximise its value. But if this antique falls in the hands of a layman- someone who doesn't know or appreciate antique, from priceless it became worthless or the value of the antique will drop tremendously..Its not appreciated for what it is. Even sometimes taking it as a substitute or trying to modify to fit his/her needs..This antique is ruin.
Thus, each of us, needs to find our collector, be it in Love/Relationship or in Career. It works the same way.

People say bad things about you, did not appreciate you or sees your value, not becuz you are worthless but becuz they are not the collector who can identify your true value.

One day the antique will meet his/her collector and be happy...getting what he/she deserve.

(to Susan Lau..hee) That's why I said I have moved on because I finally accept the fact that XXX is not my collector and my collector will come by one day.

Its like working...no point to work in a place where you are not appreciated and your value and effort is not appreciated. You and me deserve something better.

This is loving ourselves isn't it.

Well..Theory is theory..come to actual fact, its not easy to carry out, this is human's nature.

I truly thank God for all these wonderful people thru-out my life..Thank U LORD!

The Time of my life (lyrics)

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart


And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I’m keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
This is the time
This is the time of my life.

Fruits

"The fruit of silence is prayer
The fruit of prayer is faith
The fruit of faith is love
The fruit of love is service
The fruit of service is peace."
~ Mother Teresa ~

Somewhere over the rainbow

Ooooo oooooo ohoohohoo
Ooooo ohooohoo oooohoo
Ooooo ohoohooo oohoooo
Oohooo oohoooho ooooho
Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby ii ii iii
Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Dreams really do come true ooh ooooh
Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me ee ee eeh
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops thats where you'll find me oh
Somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly
And the dream that you dare to,why, oh why can't I? i iiii

Well I see trees of green and
Red roses too,
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world

Well I see skies of blue and I see clouds of white
And the brightness of day
I like the dark and I think to myself
What a wonderful world

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Saying, "How do you do?"
They're really saying, I...I love you
I hear babies cry and I watch them grow,
They'll learn much more
Than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world (w)oohoorld

Someday I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney top that's where you'll find me
Oh, Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dream that you dare to, why, oh why can't I? I hiii ?

Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo
Ooooo oooooo oooooo

Rainbow after the rain

There is always rainbows after the rain...

There are days of sun, days of rain, days of clouds, days of rainbow...
And of cuz days of snow...

God is gracious and lovely, always reminding us each day that He is always watching over us even after each raining day...showing us the rainbow...

The rainbow not only is beautiful and colourful...
The bible says that the rainbow is God's promise to us, His grace towards us.
He will never leave us and He is forever watching over us.

To me, it also symbolise Hope, bringing us from one extreme to another..like the rainbow which starts from one end and goes to another.

I dunno what God has install for me, but surely I know there is something better and good on the other end...and I have started sliding towards that end as the rain begin to stop.

Today, my boss as usual, talked to me, wanting me to stay and help him just like the previous times when I tendered. This time he proposed to invite me to join so-called another company which is still under our church in Hougang in a so-called "New Dept" doing publications for him. He asked me to considered. He sound very kind and understanding...

As he told me that he understand that now i am undergoing alot of stress esp in this working environment and having to cope with my study at the same time, thus if I have not found a better job yet, I am welcome to join him in that dept which he mentioned. Or if I have better plan or if God leads me to a better place, don't worry about this side, just go for it.
Let whatever unhappiness be by-gone. I am free to leave as and when I want..don't need to serve one month..and he is ready to welcome me over to the other side.

Hee..I know what you guys are thinking....
You guys must be thinking "Angie...you better dun be so soft-hearted again....
hee...don't worry...
I told him...I dunno what is ahead but I know that God is leading me.
He will prepare for me..a better place...

Before he left he said "I will wait for your good news after you decide.."
I told him "No, God will decide."

I told Billy what happen and asked for his advise again..
Billy says "Trust & Follow what You Want to do. That's the only way to be sure."
Words of wisdom.
He has been emphasizing in Doing what I want...to do...
So did many of my classmates and friends told me...

Yes, this is the right time to really think..what do I want...what will make me happy..

Finally...something came to my mind...as I was talking to my client whom I did web design for her...
Yes, I want to write....
Maybe this is the area I should go into..

I love writing..
Recently someone approached me to do some writing for XXX Newsletter..in fact to do up the entire Quarterly Newsletter for them...well..we shall see how the Lord leads..its still in negotiation.

As mentioned..when I first knew Billy...I often write to him about my life story..He finds them really interesting..and told me I should write into books for people out there to read. Back then I told him, Nah..My English is not up to that standard..

But as I start writing blogs..many gave me good feedbacks...
I see how it touches people's heart...I was greatly encourage...
That doesn't mean I am good..
but that's what I really want to do...to write and share about things in life..

Today, an 'uncle', one of my elderly client whom I often do letter and document typing service for him told me that I should write books.. esp when I am good in both English and Chinese. He is a very kind man. A very knowledgable yet humble man. Very poliet, understanding and encouraging.

Thus, if God allows and opens a way for me, I would like to write articles, be it for Newsletter or Magazines..
Let the Lord leads...
or perhaps, God might have something even better in mind.
Afterall, He is the Lord who created everything.

Well...least I am happy now cuz I see the rainbows after the rain...and I decided to face whatever is done as the perfect will of God and handle them positively.

Thanks all of you for your wonderful support, love, concern and encouragement.

Thus, let's not grumble when we see rain (hee...reminding myself this too..) cuz there is rainbow after each rain falls...

Nite nite..

Life is like a Roller Coaster

I told my friends and they all agreed...
My life is like a Roller Coaster..the only different is ...Mine has more Ups and Downs (One after another...even before you have time to take a breath..)

A friend told me today "Yes, but this makes your life more interesting isn't it?" I said "Yup, my friend. That's why I have never in my life grumble or blame God for any of these...I just find God very Humorous...and I will laughed to myself and say "Oh God...Not again...You must be joking..."
Like what this friend say "There is down because there is going to be Up dear.." He is right...
In a Roller Coaster Ride, the Up is normally not the exciting part...Its the Down or you know you will be going Down..that caused ones heart to pump heavily..and your heart will seems to fall off as the roller coaster speed all the way down. Normally your heart reaches the ground before you physically 'hit' the bottom of the track.
But guess what? You will never fall to the ground...each time you thot you are going to hit the ground...the next moment, you are Up again...

This is just what always happens in my life...
Thus this makes me stronger because each Down is because there is going to be an Up..
like my friend say, its what you think...many of us when we are Up there we start to worry about the Down part and start worrying and frighten ourselves...we forgot to enjoy the most of the moment when we are UP there.

I thank God for this Roller Coaster Ride...I guess each Roller Coaster Ride actually makes my heart stronger and stronger..to a point I laughed and ask God, "God, is it because You know I am Strong and gets stronger after each failure that You allow so much Ups and Downs in my life?" I guess God only gave me a smile.
I guess perhaps God wants me to learn like what my friend said...Dun think about the Downs when you are Up there...Enjoy the most out of the Ups as if its forever. And when you are down there...remember..the next wonderful thing is going to come soon..which is..soon you will find yourself UP there again...
He is right....God is Love. Everything He does is for the Good of those who love HIM.
And Surely I do.

Just as I was recovering from one event another event hit me. I was Hit by a Huge wave...It hitted me Hard enough this time that I tender, handed my resignation letter on the spot.

I know its time to leave, tho I tendered a few times, but each time I was soft-hearted and stayed back..but I told myself..no more soft-heart..if this time I tender..its really time to leave..
God really let it hit me hard enough to make the "MISS NICE LADY" to quit on the spot. Still I was kind enough I gave them till end of next month.
I guess I need a break too...
I tender without having a job offer this time...unlike other times..when I had job offers waiting for me...
But guess what...
I go by Faith..I know the Lord will prepare for me in due time.

B-Angel said "Perhaps for the better"...Since the day I knew he, he felt that I should consider other job options...He saw and felt my hardwork and my passion for my work..and often help me to sort out my thots..I remember he once smsed me this "This is what I like about you, your passion for things you do."
Others said I should left long ago...so did all my family members...

Bro reminded me that our dignity and integrity is most important. And we must always keep them. One day I will find a boss who can appreciate me.

Billy say "Seek out what you want to do and have confidence, you will succeed."

Others said, God knows and that's enough.

I believe so. So thru-out the whole conversation with my supervisor, I let her threw whatever she want onto me..and remain calm.
I only ask calmly for her to explain her points...after knowing that she points are totally nonsense..God helped me to remain really calm..and I only say one thing to her "You don't have to leave. Save that trouble. I will leave. That's it."

Indeed I was very upset caused she made a remark that no one can ever imagine, never in my entire working life anyone told me this "You made no contribution to this company." The moment I heard this, I smiled and that's it "I Quit!" That's Final, no more soft-hearted nice lady..cracking my brain thinking all the time how to help improving the business, bringing more business..that's it finally!!! No contribution??? Thank You very much!!! (Thanks for slapping me hard enough to wake me up for being Miss Nice Lady, Thank U! Thanks for helping me to make up my mind right away! Thank U Thank U.) This is what goes on in my heart.

God knows the truth. That's enough.
I just wrote a resignation letter on the spot and give it to her.

Alright, its time to leave.

I believe God will guide me to a better place...He probably just want me to be firm and no more soft hearted thats all.

If I am like what she said "Worthless, no contribution, my same boss won't not have asked me to stay back so many times, telling me..you know you cant leave because you are handling 3-4 people's job at the same time. Nobody can take over. I compromise and went to this newly took over company for nearly two years..my old position at my old place still nobody can take over. That speaks for itself. I need not say much.
Saying that my design is not good enough...let the customer tells..
Customer came and question me why the design nowadays so 'U..y' I said, well..its not done by me anymore..and they reply immediately..that is very obvious..the previous design is so nice..

So..that tells it all...I will let those people to say what they want...eventually..the fact will tell the truth.
I am no longer that little timid girl who has no self-confidence who you can step on anytime you like. But I won't waste my effort if its not worth it..eventually time will tells..

So thank you for your harsh accusation..dun worry...I will not do those nasty things.

Just Be truth to yourself and be kind to others.
Just pray that the Lord will open her eyes one day to make her realise what she should and should not have done.

Its never good to be mean to others..NEVER!

Strange Dream

I had strange dream again.

this time, I found myself in a huge shopping mall.
On the left side of the shopping mall, there is a lift.
And on the other side of the shopping mall is the stairs leading from Basement to Level 5.

What is interesting about this dream is...the different level of the shopping mall will shuffer as and when moving the basement to either of the levels, likewise the other levels. Thus if you wanna go to the food court at the basement using the stairs, you would like to 'run for it with all your might in one breath' if not you would probably find yourself ended up in another store instead of the foodcourt.
Its really exciting...

When I finally reached the foodcourt, I found myself sitted down with 3 girls and Dan (Mr Sunshine) talking about those women in Dan's life thats really interesting..

Not sure why Mr SunShine is in this dream...probably, I started to miss the sun in Auz already..hahaha..

I had another dream just now, as I was on mc resting at home, Doctor said I overstress thus need to take some medication to have a good sleep at home today.
In this dream...I was not feeling well too...
I ended up finding myself in the old childcare centre which I worked in.
Thereafter I bid goodbye telling them I am fine cuz they were very worried about me, my house is just nearby.
As I search my way back to my place, I felt so exhausted and not sure why I just couldn't find my way back home.

Suddenly, I found myself in an alien place. In my panick state, I fainted....
and then I woke up from my dream..

Must check this out!!!!

Hey Sandra must ask Peter to watch this at home okie?
I think he will love it.
With or without you


This is a WOW..Impressive!
I like this.

Missing You (His own song- must listen..it touches the heart..)


California Dreaming - Sungha Jung


Living On A Prayer - Sungha Jung


I love this song "RAINDROP KEEP FALLING ON MY HEAD"


Your song


Moon River


(watch his skill)
Splash


Destiny


More than words


Wu Wei